Bio (page 1)

Like most transgendered folks, this ongoing adventure of mine started when I was still a pre-teen. I am still not sure what precipitated that first urge to wear something feminine, but for as long as I can remember, I have been inexplicably fascinated and drawn to the "feminine mystique". I love the way a woman looks, from the style of her hair, to the height of her heels, and everything in between. Emulation of those looks is my "hobby", for lack of another word to describe it. But it is so much more than a hobby. It is a way of "being"! My first few ventures into this new world consisted of no more than putting on a pair of stockings and some high heel shoes (my mom's I believe), but the thing that struck me and has remained with me up to this day, is the way it made me feel. It was a mixture of happiness (fun), naughtiness (not in a bad way), the advent of sexual excitement, and something that told me that even though what I was doing was not considered "normal", it still felt "right" for me. It scared me for a long time to come because I did not know what this was, and for many years I thought that I was the only person in the world doing this. I knew that this was something I would not be able to share with anyone for fear of being ridiculed, or punished, and so it became my deepest, darkest secret. It was also the beginning of what would become a very lonely place to be. Was I confused? You bet! Scared? Sure! Did I stop? No way! This was part of me, and I knew it. I just didn't know what to call it, but that would come with time. Back to Index Next page