There is also a certain "naughtiness" about the whole thing. It's kind of like I am out there, looking and acting like a woman, but I know that underneath all the clothes and makeup, I am really a guy. It's like when you are a kid and you are playing "make believe". It's just plain fun! It can be a little unnerving at times, especially if I get read, but that's rare, and as long as nobody bothers me about it, that's okay.
I love to dance in girl mode, but I have not done that in a while (apart from Halloween). The club scene is not something I do a lot these days, but that's another story.
The whole process of getting dressed and doing my hair and makeup and catching that glimpse of myself in the mirror afterwards is something that always brings me joy. It's a feeling of getting in touch with something that's important and special to me.
Sexually speaking, it is not as much of a "turn on" now as when I was younger. I suppose over time the fetish part of it has worn off, but I would still love to bring it into the bedroom sometimes. I find the feeling of silk against silk very arousing.
I have no illusions about who I really am. I know that I am a guy, but sometimes it just feels nice being a girl for a while. It has been a part of me all my life, and I suspect it always will be.
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